Today is the start of a new season. Growth and maturity are personal and ongoing journeys that we have to learn from different experiences. We are not the same people that we were yesterday. Sometimes I wish that I could go back in time and make better choices, especially if I was able to access the knowledge and experiences that I have now.
I know that I am extremely hypersensitive to everything emotionally. I constantly need to take myself out of a situation, in order to process it and literally calm myself down. Everyone is different and deals with the same situations in their own way. My way consists of writing my thoughts down, whether it is in prose or as a diary entry. I also tend to write lyrics and songs, as a way of self expression.
I guess that you’ve figured out that I am an introvert. I don’t like being a part of big groups or chatting to people I don’t know. Ironically, I have to be outgoing on a daily basis – I belong to a big pentecostal church (I am a part of the Worship and Kids Ministry Teams), as well as, working as a Nursery Nurse.
It’s really hard, especially when I am feeling a bit down. In those moments, I try to be optimistic, and I pretend that I am the bold version of myself. And that is usually when the ones who know me best, will see through my mask and attempt to find out exactly what is going on.
We are all very complex beings, but it’s not hard to be a friend. It’s harder to trust someone again after they have betrayed you, or someone you know. Forgiveness and love go hand in hand. We have to remember that we will be judged in the same way that we judge others. And that is the lesson that I am currently trying to learn and gain knowledge from.